20 going on 21 female failure, lost, needs direction or advice HELP!?

I need advice as to what and where to do with my life. I have no connection with my messed up family, or friends. The only thing I have accomplished is graduating high school, and dropping out of college 2 times, messing up my financial aid. Never have any real parent growing up was the typical, poor, divorced, neglected%26amp; abused child case. I am the oldest of 3. I need direction or advice. Just hanging out lost and I feel like a failure I am capable but I don鈥檛 know what to do. Currently UN employed, never had a license, I have chronic anxiety, panic attacks, and severe o.c.d. And have had manic depression since birth. I know I can be and do whatever I want in life I feel stuck, worthless, and lost everyday. Don鈥檛 know what other options I have. Please HELP.20 going on 21 female failure, lost, needs direction or advice HELP!?
Well, the good news is you're acknowledging where you seriously are in life. The next good thing about your post is you still have time on your side, because you're still very young (in spite of what you think).


Here's what you can do, aalthoughyou have dropped out of school, you can get back in. You should reapply for Financial Aid and ask about an appeal for financial aid assistance. The school may have you pay for a minimum amount of credit hours out of pocket before restoring any grants or student loans for you (perhaps 6 credit hours). They may allow you to complete an appeal and cconditionallyrestore your financial aid (meaning the next 1 or 2 terms) you must pass with a minimum of a C and can't drop any classes, so I would start with no more than 2 classes for the first term.


Secondly, while you are waiting for a decision on financial aid, go sit with a counselor and ask for assistance with outlining classes you will need to complete and tell the counselor about some of your existing challenges.


They will take those things under consideration while making recommendations and also provides you a chance to have an unbiased open conversation with someone that can provide you with the guidance you need. Good luck and don't stop trying. I wish you well.20 going on 21 female failure, lost, needs direction or advice HELP!?
I really feel for you and you even helped put my troubles in perspective. I don't know if my thoughts are worth anything but anyway. In terms of options firstly i would suggest that due to the plethora of psychological or emotional issues at hand that maybe you should seek help from a professional, be it psychologist etc. It's hard to grasp moving forward when mentally you feel down in the dumps and are suffering from various conditions. However, you say your unemployed and so that could restrict the amount of help you can receive. Everything seems to bloody cost money these days. But still i would suggest you try find a job ( i know too well how hard it is mind you) as a start so you can support yourself. I don't know your situation with money and so you may not be in desperate need of a job right now but if so you can go to agencies who help find suitable jobs for your qualifications. Also look through the papers etc for advertisements. You may have done this already though. It sounds like your lacking support from the people around you and that is very very important in coping and talking through options. You may find it useful to start off with some goals: what do you want to do with you life and how can you achieve it. and by the sounds of it you are fully capable of achieving anything despite everything else. if you need a friend im all ears though i don't know how useful i'll be... I don't know how else or what else i can say. i hope i helped a little and didn't crap on about stuff too much. i too understand bad childhoods, depression etc. but i see your in need of a lot more than understanding so good luck with everything i truly hope your smiling at the other end of the screen.