Plz give me advice!!!! help!?

Ok so my life feels like its falling apart. First of all my parents are getting divorced and all they do is argue and they dont live together anymore!!! my mom pesters me constantly about everything that i need to do and clean, i clean the whole house! and all i do is babysitt my little bros and they dont listen to me im 14 and i feel like a mother! i never get to see my friends outside of school or do any extra curricular activities! and my mom is always complaining! also my best friend hardly talks to me anymore and hangs out with the peolpe who im pretty sure hate me! i feel more alone than ever! and i cant go to her with my probs! and my grades suck becuz i cant stay focused on anything! and the big thing thats bothering me is that i was seeing this guy for a while but we werent actually ever going out, i fell hard for him ever since, but later on he fell for this other girl and had to choose between us and he chose her, probably becuz he wld see her more since shes in his grade. hes 14 im 14 but im in 8th and hes a freshman. but after that i was desperate for a bf i ended up saying yes to his best friend. but he didnt care he was happy for his friend and for me! i was ok and kinda glad not to be alone. but then one night he came over to talk to me about probs he was having with his gf. so i helped him out but we ended up hanging out like we used to (hugging, kissing, laying together, doing some bad sexual things that were fun). and we really care about eachother but we hung out a couple of other times and i fell for him even harder and he was all i could think about. but we knew we were doing a terrible thing!!! even tho we both cared about one another sooooo much. i finnally told my best friend who didnt speak to me for 3 days becuz of it, so i ended it. i felt good about it but i was in deppression for days!!! and my bf was all like hanging on me and being like ';oh i missed you'; after not seeing me for 3 days at a time and he still does that....but i didnt feel the same it was akward and i want that but not from him... and ive been talking to the guy i really like and we are friends but we miss eachother sooo much and we dont know wat to do. my bf totaly likes me way more than i like him and i dont have the heart to do anything about it! and i know the guy i like isnt using me or anything he cares for me and i care for him but im lost!!!!! so right now we are still trying to figure out wat to do! plzzzz help me ill be sooo grateful if u can help me! and with all the other stress added on im losing it and contemplating bad things and idk how to resolve it. plzzz help me!











im actually fine with my parents divorce but evryone treats me like im stressed so i get stressed and the guy tht i like is going out with another freshman and im going out with his best friend and my best friend is going out with one of my ex boyfriends.








also one more thing, i know i should have never liked him in the first place cuz my best friend dated him earliar in the year and i felt like i wasnt supposed to like him for her sake and i feel horrible i hate myself and i hate it that im totally jealous of his current gf. i hate myself for feeling the way i do! but all i know is i dont think he cld be out of my life cuz he kinda is my best friend and he is very important to me!








i swear to god i love the kid and now that ive said this ill prob get people telling me i dont know wat love is but W/E!!!!!! i hate it when people say that but srsly dudes i need more advice!Plz give me advice!!!! help!?
questions like this are really hard to answer...don't know anybody involved. i feel bad for you but for right now sounds like your just going to have to wait...you should find somebody you trust that you can talk to.Plz give me advice!!!! help!?
don't write and fking bible next time.