Trouble with mom, need advice & help?

Okay, so my moms had a rough past before i was even born and she has alot of feelings from the past but i feel like shes taking it out on me. im being pushed over the edge like i have so many other times where she makes me feel ugly stupid and worthless. i achieved the high honor roll in school, straight A's, and you think that would make her happy, well it did for about a day and she still picks on me about little things. i feel like im never good enough for her and she says really mean and hurtful things to everyone in my family especially me, i am the oldest, and then the next day everyone goes on like nothings happened and i still hurt inside. she makes fun of me for not wanting to go out and do social things but shes made me so depressed and insecure for the last 5-10 years i have such bad anxiety now and freak out in social situations so i simply aviod them. she has no idea what she does to me and i really cant take it anymore. im not blaiming her for my depression and anxiety problems but she makes it so much worse, i feel like i cry every day or night because of her being mean to me %26amp; i dont know how much longer i can put up with it. she calls me fat, ugly, lazy sometimes not those exact words but she tells me other things or calls me other names. everything ive done from getting a job to making high honor roll - NOTHING makes her happy and she picks on me for one thing, i work hard to fix it, and she picks another thing. im goin to snap one day like i have in the past and i really dont know what to do anymore. she makes me feel horrible about myself and i dont open up to others or talk to others simply because i feel like they wont care or listen like my mom does. help :[ thank you so much in advance.Trouble with mom, need advice %26amp; help?
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Have a talk with her and tell her about EVERYTHING she has told you that has hurt your feelings [Open up]. I dont think you should ask her what happened in the past[which may have been traumatizing for her].





About the grades.





My mom feels the same thing. On parent meeting when she hears that I talk she gets mad. Is just that she have some stress and got alot of stuff to worry about.[Including my grades]Trouble with mom, need advice %26amp; help?
First I just want you to know I have a mom alot like yours. I'm now 25 and it took me awhile in my teens to get over her opinion or what she says. Just know that you can't continue to let that effect you sometimes the people in your life who are supposed to care about you the most let you down. But I still suggest having a talk with her my mom never understood till now when she wonders why I don't call her or come by. Just know the only person you can control is yourself you can let those things get to you or you can say I know who I am and what I'm doing with my life. Concentrate on the other family members or friends in your life. Also trying talking to her not in arguing way just sit her down and say you know when you say those things it really hurts my feelings. Learn to walk away. Sometimes parents don't understand why they are doing but you have to be the better person and love yourself.





Like Eleanor Roosevelt said ';Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent';